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I'm not recovering but I was heavily into booze for the better part of 30 years.I drank on a daily basis.

One afternoon about 15 years ago I looked at my reflection in the mirror behind the bar at my favourite pub.

The first thought I got was "Oh shit!!.Is that me?

I have never been back in any pub. I have perhaps 3 or 4 drinks per year now.

Thank you so much everyone x.Dont know what the hecks going on.Ive been sober for 11 years now(actually its a couple of months over that,it was November  2000 i had my last drink) Had some real rubbish since then,family rifts,deaths of people i thought the world of,major problems with my son.The list goes on But ive always got through  that,without  a drink.So now why when i should be so on top of my game do i find myself needing a drink?I dont get it .Yesterday for example ,when i went for my cigarettes im looking at the booze aisle again  for what i used to drink.Im glad they didnt have in stock(white cider,the vodka had no attraction for me anymore ).One of my sayings is "what dont kill you makes you stronger".But funny enough i dont feel strong at the moment.My own common sense tells me picking up a bottle would be disastrous.I cannot live like that again ,couldnt do withdrawal again either,  but the litt le voice at the back of the mind says"one drink wont hurt"etc etc. I did check meeting times last night(must be 9 years since ive been to AA,),wouldnt hurt to tag along.Thank you again Tommy,Daren,Mich and Doo,dont know what today will bring,but i hope i wont pick up a drink .Love and thanks , J.xx

leosmaml....Are you okay?  Lots of people here are worried about you, I'm sure.  Talk to us.

Ducky

I am not an alcoholic leosmaml so, of course, I cannot "get it". I do know several alcoholics though, and we have talked. I know that each one struggles at times and it's a good day when "I did not drink today". I hope that you will not drink again tomorrow but right now, I do realize that you cannot promise that. Do whatever you must, including AA but please do it now!!!!

leosmaml....Please don't leave us!!!!!   Don't go back down that lonely road!!!!!

I havnt ever been a alciholic but I have done counceling for AA and NA if you need or any one needs to talk please ask Colleen for my email and I will do my best to help just remember everyone out there this is a Disease x

So sorry your demons are sitting back on your shoulder,please keep strong Leosmami you have come too far to fall back into them dark horrible days.I imagine this is the fight of your life at the moment, keep focused ,it will pass,just remember "ONE DAY AT A TIME".Good Luck.

Two young guys were sitting in a bar when one looked over and saw two dried up drunken old men sitting across from them ,one said to the other "hey jack that's us in ten years" his buddy replied no hank that's a mirror......

I believe AA has lists of meetings all around the world and perhaps they have chat sites...try to google! And call someone!!!

" I feel sorry for people that don't drink,when they wake up in the morn-in ,that's the best that their go-in to feel all day ! " ;)

Ducky

What if a person wakes up in the morning,happy and looking forward to the day? Why would they ruin it by dulling the senses with booze?

Leosmaml,  not a recovering alcoholic, but I just wanted to send you thoughts of caring and support,  I know addiction intimately and you are so wise to be reaching out in your time of difficulty.  Please do take it one day at a time, one hour at a time or even one minute at a time.  It takes so much strength to do this and I admire and fully respect you doing so.  Keep your faith oh-so close to you right now. Don't fall back, just put your head down and keep forging ahead.  "This, too, shall pass"  as my grandmother often said, and she was always right.

Thats the devil sitting on your schoulder, trying to tempt you, Call AA right now. They will connect you with someone who can help you. I think its a good sign, that you are reaching out to us. You just cant go there again!

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Strange you asked that, someone in town just died from it  two days ago. 

Ducky

:(

Ducky

@leosmaml...I know someone who is killing himself with alcohol and another who died a few years ago, with the same addiction. They both look 20 years older than their real age...awful to watch!

Yet again i find myself saying thank you.Went to a meeting earlier and nows  the best ive felt for a few weeks on and off.I still dont know what happened,complacency?But i dont get like that usually.I deal with things as they come and i do it sober .So why start to unravel????Heaven knows.But  although i knew in my own mind i was going off the wagon,i havent had a drink today.And i hope i dont have one tomorrow though thats another day.With love and thanks,J x

Ducky

Just read this post...so glad you went and that it helped. A woman told me that she has not had a drink in almost 20 years but still goes to a meeting, twice a week and will do so forever, if that's what it takes. Like you, she can't explain the "upsets", but struggles too. Best to you, leo.

Leos:  Hope you're doing OK......  Stay ON the wagon.  You can do it.