try not to stare at it....    I have the same problem. I drive w/ my high beams on at night; it is b/c my high beams work equivalent to other cars' regular lights. Since the car accident, my lights don't work the same anymore, and I can't aford to get fix them right.

I've never been on diet or want to lose any. I can lose weight easily, but the gaining is another story. I'm 5'5, 126 lbs, been like  this for the past several yrs. (before always 115lbs). If you look at me, you can't tell that I weight that much. I'm happy where I am now; I think I look better than ever.

I'd like to be 130 lbs though. :)

why? they're stop living and staying productive- thinking they have nothing left to contribute and do good for their community. People these days, esp, people I know, just exist, but not really living life to their most potential as they're destined to be. As we're aged and grow, we should never stop stay  active and living productive. When we do that, we're bored, aged and become more sick, no?

Satisfaction in what?? my motto: be satified in every situation. We can't always get what we want, but we can look at life as half full not half emply.... Happiness is a choice.

beside spending time w/ family and get gifts, I enjoy celebrating 12/25 because I rejoice in the celebration of the birth of baby Jesus

You need to also forgive yourself. Learn from your mistakes and move on with or w/o her. Some people can't just forgive or forget easily. It takes time to build that trust and once its broken it takes even longer or never to trust that person again. Because in the back of their mind there is always "what if, what if?" Listen to Mom's answer to take this separation to show her that you are lovable and changable person. If you're geniunely love her and want to be in her life, show her that; it could takes weeks, months, years or never- I'm afraid you'll need to try harder. If months from her, there is no reconcillation, perhaps it's time you let each other and end the misery and waste any un-necesarry time and move on. Life is too short and precious. Good luck.