God made us with free will, so we can choose Him or not. He is loving and kind and not willing that any perish, but all have eternal life in heaven, and full life here on earth. There is a real enemy and deceiver, the devil, that wants you to be on his side as well. He tempts you and entices you to do evil and go away from your creator. God loves you so much, that He won't control you to make you choose Him, but he lovingly calls you to turn to Him so you can know the fullness He gives.  Why does evil exsist if God is so loving?...is one of the most common questions people ask about the Christian faith and the bible. I encourage you to read the bible and see what God says to you himself. I bet you can't just read one page. You will find love and healing and you will understand more about evil and good. I hope you find HIm, He loves you.