I agree with Luna,get help right awway,I have been there and there is help out there for you. You are NOT alone,there are all kinds of depression and they can be helped. Look you are reaching out already and you can feel the you are depressed,that is a start.Call your doctor and get in right away! Like i said i have been there and it is not a good feeling,but there is help and Never be afraid to reach out for help of any kind. Please call and get yourself in the right place,GOD speed and I hope that you will be feeling great soon! Spring is almost here and the more you can get out in the sunshine the better you will be feeling also.Take care.