well sondera it is not that much easy to answer this type of question.i donot know who you are christian,hindus,budhist or jews whatever you are you need a lot to find the answer for this question coz since your childhood what you are looking,what you are listening,what you are praying,you think you are on right path but if i say you not on right path so you will never believe on me so best thing to do is if  you realy looking for a right path you need a hard work for it,best of luck and GOD BLESS YOU