Sweet heart the best thing to do is to pray about this situation. Take it to the LORD almighty. Put it in the Father's hands and he will do the rest. The LORD will make hime reveal the truth of what he has done. I know from personal experience what you are feeling because I went through the same thing honey. I will not tell you that it will go away but I will tell you through prayer it will get easier do not hold on to it because it will just make pain of it worst and make it harder to forgive so take it to God and do not go back and collect it and it will get better......not over night but will.