It is time to become your own mother. Learn to nurture yourself, identify your positive behaviors and traits, speak kindly to yourself quietly or in your mind. Picture yourself as lovable, and good and kind even if your warped mother was UNABLE to love. It was not you she could not love, but herself. She was bitter and struck out at others to push them away. Recreate yourself honey. Create a loving mother always available inside. I did all of these things to lessen the hurt from my mother with about 90% success. Blessings.Nancy