Forget pride. Life is for living, dont ponder, you never know how long you have to love and be loved. Take it while you can, if it lasts for 2 days/weeks/months/yrs....you will be happy for that period of time. We all deserve happiness. If the love you give is recipricated, grab hold of it and never let it go.

all has been agreed upon,,, ie,,finances,,, the only thing i can think of is that she does not want be to be happy again, and does not want me to marry. our marriage was over long ago.