I really think you shouldn't confuse universe with solar system or galaxy.
the education system, and the entertainment industry. The system has done well at separating the child from the mother. Now family bonds are almost gone.
" Aloft on the shady hill in the faraway corner of The Gant did Mowatt call home. a great steep hill it was, and on the cliff's edge did mana of all trees stead. Like Mowatt did this tree live, near the edge and between comfort and chasm. On nights when stars and the great moons shone brightly in the sky did Mowatt sense a presence beyond what his eyes could see. His back against the mana tree, his eyes glinting like the stars; there was a feeling of something else there. That was always there. But was changing. Like a moth flying in to a flame he was being pulled by this presence. It felt as a great dragon of his nightmare, yet beyond that was there truth, and wishes coming true. The essence of desire and fulfillment. "
This is simply the problem, there is no virtue in asking for help when you have not the humility to learn. the fact is true, you have to be a little smart to gain insight, and awareness.. being smart is just the next step. Many choose not to be, by leaning far too much on external forces, and not being virtuous.
I don't mean this to harm you.. you say you've been rejected all of your life. I don't have all of the answers because I don't know you, but it's the same for everyone.. some are rejected because of how they look, they seem awkward, and you react to this judgment and believe in it. If you believe in God then you must believe that your physical appearance to others doesn't matter.. my belief is that you don't truly believe in your own spirit, and so you rely on the opinion of others, rather than trusting in yourself.. don't be conditioned to acknowledge others' opinions.. there is no hope in it. You must learn to trust yourself.. I too am a sensitive person. There are many reasons for this.. chakras unbalanced. Quick tip, for an energy balance you must focus less on your mind and more on your overall connection from tail bone to head, focusing more on the middle region. Energy is stored in your sex chakra, your loin area.. this may or may not help, but perhaps one day you will see what I mean. You have a hard lesson to learn as I have, so learn it!
Quick meditation technique. Breath in and out deeply; on the way in say 'I' in your head, and say 'am' on the way out.. The I AM chakra is your solar plexus, center of your body.. this will help to center you. Your solar plexus chakra is very important, as they all are.. the lower chakras are highly responsive to nourishment, and healthy diet. I hope you can help yourself with this. If not, I tried.
Yes, and how many movies are there that take place in China with martial arts masters and kung fu champions.. and the white American kid saves the day. Movies are politics. Hollywood is a medium for political conditioning and antagonizing.
When my health is bad I do feel like that sometimes.. life is just less enjoyable. It takes patience and in a way you need to start over with a clean slate. Something must be dropped.. a weight must be lifted off.
You are a great person for putting something like this together, the world needs more of it.. I would be blessed for someone to finally say a prayer for me.. first of all I need my health to be restored fully, because you are only as strong as your weakest link, and my health has always been bugging me.. If you could say a prayer so that I could feel good again, I would be blessed! And bless your team! :]
knowledge is the seed.. the seed is planted and grows over time, spreading its branches to connect to everything it touches.. if it doesn't sprout branches then it has little use and will be forgotten.. if it's branches spread far and touches many things then this knowledge might be useful. The source is often forgotten.. because the source is less relevant, the knowledge must serve its purpose.. One person is rarely credited for 'waking' anyone up.. nor should anyone take credit, it's a personal journey, and everyone drags their own dirt with them wherever they go.. planting many seeds along the way. Everyone affects everyone they come in to contact with, or they are forgotten.
Yes you have to be extremely persistent with getting properly diagnosed, because you will find very little help from doctors unless they take an unfair interest in you.. and everyone else gets forgotten. Hah.. but this does sound serious, and it does sound rather epileptic, because she doesn't have very many impairments other than when the episodes occur.. most families have someone with a mental illness, but mental illnesses have triggering points.. genetic yes, but disorders always have a triggering point, whether it's chemical, diet, spiritual, or emotional, mental.. stress. Do as much research on your own as possible, while she is also seeking professional help and diagnoses.. your own research will aid the doctors involved. The more information they have, the quicker the process will be. Doesn't sound like it's a brain tumor, but keep that in mind as well.. if it's happening more frequent as time goes on? That's all I got.